April.22.2009

Birthday at Yellowcab

I thought no one would really care about my birthday. I thought wrong. I told you I was just too overdramatic that day. Since I was absent on the day of my birthday, I decided  to celebrate it with my friends on a Saturday (to avoid too many unwanted people to celebrate with us.. hehehe). It was a fun evening. We dined in at Yellowcab and had a hearty dinner. I was really surpised that they had a gift for me (although it was already a tradition for the group to give a birthday gift to anyone who would be celebrating his/her birthday). I just did not expect that they would really personalize their gift for me.

Hearty surprise

Their gifts were enclosed in a heart-shaped box. It was really cute. But the contents were much cuter. Inside was a personalized t-shirt. The front of the shirt was a picture of me with Chito Miranda and the back contained all their birthday messages for me. Thanks to Tati for making the shirt after taking some quick lessons of photoshop from me (hahaha.. kaya pala).

Birthday treats

 It was really very thoughtful. Aside from the shirt, there was a “cat” mirror. According to Van, I was the only one among us three who didnt have a mirror that’s why they bought me one. I also got a Kikay kit, which I’ve been longing to buy for the past 2 months now.. Hehehe… Let’s not forget the 3pcs of Hersheys which was also part of the surprise. 

The back of the shirt

It was really a birthday to remember. I’m really lucky to have friends like them. The surprise almost made me cry.. Almost.. Hehehe.. But I tried not to. It was really very touching. Thank you all!…=)

 

Ordinary

I celebrated my 25th birthday last Wednesday, April 22. The heck!! I’m already 25. Nothing much has changed. I never got the birthday celebration that I really wanted or maybe like any other birthday celebrants, I was just too sensitive and too sentimental about everything. I always cried during this time of the year. Maybe because I just think that I haven’t left a mark on  other people’s lives that no  one would care enough to make me feel extra special that day. Or maybe I was just over reacting and over expectant of the things that “should have been”. I was sad most of the day. It seemed that the weather felt what I was feeling that day coz it really poured on us. For the first time, rain fell on my birthday. People say that it’s enough to be thankful for the little things that have come. The fact that you were alive to celebrate your 25th year here on earth, that you are healthy are just one of the things that I should be thankful for. But that’s life. You’ll never really get everything you wanted in life. People will not always know what you want and what you are thinking. They can only “guess” on the things that they think would make you happy. Or maybe, I am really just like any other people on earth. Not worth the effort. Not worth the time. I’m just one of the ordinary…=(

First Concert

Our tired feet after the concert

We watched the Eraserheads “The Final Set” concert last March 7, 2009. It was our first concert together and it was a great expereience. I’m fond of watching band concerts back during my high school and college days. I’m a very avid fan of Parokya ni Edgar but since Eraserheads is his favorite band and it was a “first” for him, not to mention it was for free because he paid for my ticket, I decided to go (Hehehe..:) ) Nevertheless, it was one of the calmest concerts that I have attended. I have attended concerts before that were much wilder and unsafe for girls like me.. hehehehe… Anyways, the concert lasted for almost three hours and we enjoyed every hour of it. After hours of singing, jumping, dancing and shouting along with the band, our feet gave up. Sweating and very tired, we went home happy and very satisfied. =)

Hmmmm.. I wonder what’s missing?

It’s lunch time. I used to bring “baon” every day. But since its a friday, I decided to eat out. Since I’m in a new engagement, I was not familiar with the place yet. When I went out the building, I saw a sign that read, “Chowking, straight ahead”. I followed the sign thinking that it was only a few meters away. After several minutes, I was still walking. Wearing my high-heeled shoes, I felt that my feet were already tired. Finally, I saw another sign. It read, “Chowking, 300m ahead”. I thought, “Oh my God, I should have just settled with the 711 store that was just a few blocks away from the building”. With my tummy grumbling and feet aching, I decided to go ahead since I’m already very much farther away from the bldg now. Finally, I arrived at Chowking. Luckily, there was no queue. I ordered a beef chao fan with shanghai toppings and a regular iced tea. I waited for a few minutes, got my order and went back to the building. I decided to use the other route, thinking it was shorter. Of course, I was wrong. Exhausted, I made it back to the building. It was already quarter to one!!! I opened my chao fan and guess what? There were no shanghai toppings!!! I even asked for a sauce. I felt so stupid that I didn’t even check my order before I left. Life really suck sometimes.=(

12.27.08

It’s our anniversary. I did not expect too much for this day but I got more than what I had imagined. We’ve been planning for this day way ahead and finally decided to spend it at Puerto Galera for three days and two nights, just the two of us. With doubts that it would push through, due to the gloomy weather and other unforeseen events, the sun decided to show itself on the scheduled day that we’re supposed to leave. It was like a sign that something really great would come out of this trip after all.

It felt weird to go to the beach in December. There are less people and it was really windy the whole time we were there. Looking on the bright side, less people means more intimacy and we got to explore  Puerto Galera wihout bumping to all the people on the beach. We were able to discover other beaches around which we were not able to see the first time we were there. It was really relaxing.  I really love beaches. It’s a place where you can just stare at the ocean and think about nothing at all. It’s also a place  where very special and amazing things could happen.

He chose to propose there. On a rock, while watching the waves splash back and forth on the sands, he delivered the most candid, touching and heartfelt speech while slipping the ring on my finger. I cried of course. I  just felt so happy and loved during that moment that all you could do to express those feelings back is to cry and say “Yes”. After seven years of our relationship, we finally got enaged.

Now, more than ever, I felt excited about the future, OUR future. How I wish I could just fast forward everything to the time when we are already married. We’ve made plans and hopefully things would turn out the way we want it. Let’s keep our fingers crossed. =)

Sunday Homily

It’s Sunday and I heard mass this morning. The priest who celebrated the mass was one of my favorite priests. This is the reason why I was able to remember the homily today (I’m so bad.. hehehe). The homily had two main points:

1) If you want to be happy, count your blessings and say “Thank You”.  

2) If you don’t want to be sad, don’t compare what you have with others.

His homily struck me. I realized, that oftentimes, whenever I receive blessings from God, I remember being happy and satisfied but sometimes I fail to thank God for all these blessings that have come my way. Then I would just proceed with my daily routine until the moment that I would ask him again for something, and again, forget to say “Thank You”.

The second point was the one that struck me the most.  I am most guilty of comparing what I have with what others have. I am often envious of other persons who are “MORE”. More wealthy, more beautiful, more confident, more intelligent. And oftentimes, I would ask myself why they are “More” than me. I learned today that in order for me not to feel sad all the time, I should stop complaining and just be contented with what I have.

His special day

August 13. A date that I have been anticipating to arrive. I had a leave scheduled for this day. I just have to. Days before this date, I have already planned for the things that I have to do.

One week before, I have already asked permission from my boss for a 3 day leave (August 13-15). Unfortunately, our vacation credits were not yet available that time so I just settled for a one day leave, that’s on August 13 itself. It’s a Wednesday.

On August 11, I had an inventory count which lasted until 3pm. Although tired, I was determined to do what I had to do this day. I went to Greenbelt because it was the nearest mall that time. I searched for the nearest Bench store but I was not able to find the particular item I was looking for. SM Makati was also near so I decided to drop by just to see if the item was available there. Unfortunately, I did not find it. Since it was still early, I decided to go to SM Megamall. Since it is “the Megamall” I thought I would increase ny chances of finding what I need there. Again, to no avail. Robinson’s department store is already a walk away, I decided to give it one last shot. Still, after several minutes of walking, I did not find the particular item I was looking for. I don’t want to go home empty-handed, so I just decided to purchase the “best buy” that I could find. Satisfied and very, very tired, I decided to go back to the office. At 5pm, he called me, the usual time that he usually calls. I told him, I was already on my way back to the office from Sucat. I was just in front Robinson’s, the place where he usually rides his bus home. Hurriedly, I rode the bus, afraid of being seen.

August 12. One day before the big day. My throat was sore from eating halo-halo yesterday. It was so sore that I thought I already had a high fever. It was also the 2nd day of the inventory count and I can’t be absent. The count lasted until 12noon so we were able to go back to the office early and was able to go home early.We went to meet that day. I gave him the hard disk of our computer. He is quite a computer expert, that’s why every time I had trouble with my computer, I call on him for help. Excited for the next day, we parted early.

August 12, 12mn. I had my alarm set at 12mn. I was so tired of the inventory counts I made during the last two days that I had to set my alarm just to wake at this specific time. I wanted to be the first one to greet him. He was still awake, as usual. I texted him ” Happy Birthday” and he was happy about it.

August 13. He went to work. This was the day of my leave. I woke up early because I had to prepare siomai. This was his request everytime his birthday arrives. He loves the siomai I make and every year I never fail to prepare it for him. After cooking, I brought it over to their house, together with my gift. I placed the gift on his bed, together with the birthday card that i bought. Afterwards,I went to their office just to fetch him. He used to play PSP with his officemates after work. I arrived there early, so he never got the chance to play with his officemates that time. We were able to arrive at their house early. We ate dinner and I saw how happy he was with all the siomai I made for him. When he went to his room, he saw my gift sitting on his bed. He was surprised. He was only expecting the siomai that day. He never really wanted me to spend so much on him but I wanted to. I guess I just want him to feel really happy and special on this day.

The day ended happily and I hope that he realy felt special and loved this day because he is truly loved and special.

Know thyself

I am unpretty. Yes, you can say that I’m quite harsh on myself. For starters, I don’t regard myself as a beautiful person (quite harsh eh?). I’m not ugly its just that I’m not THAT beautiful. If you would put me in line with the rest of the girls in the world, I am 100% sure that you will not notice me at all. I just would’nt stand out.

I’m talkative. Well I guess it’s just natural for girls to be talkative. When I’m irritated, I talk. When I’m sad, I talk. When I’m heartbroken, I talk. When I’m excited, i talk. When I’m hungry, I talk. When I’m bothered, I talk. When I’m worried, I talk. I even talk in my sleep! Hahaha.. It’s just a way to release my stress, I guess.

I am thoughtful. I prefer giving gifts rather than receiving one. I dont know, but I just feel happy seeing that the receiver of the gift is happy and satisfied with the gift I gave. If I have th e money, I would really buy gifts for the persons special in my life. Oftentimes, if i had the time, I would give a personalized greeting card, or any personalized handicraft. A labor of love is the best gift that you could ever give a special someone.=)

I’m a cry baby. I easily cry. Whenever I laugh too much, sneeze too hard or is really really in pain, I cry. I don’t know why but tears would just freely flow from my eyes. I really hate it sometimes because it makes me so vulnerable to people and I always get embarassed by it.

I’m a beach babe. Hahaha! Are you shocked?! Well, beach babe in a sense that I love the beach. I love to go to the beach during summer. If I have the money, I would go beach hopping and visit all the beautiful beaches in the Philippines. Just recently, we had our company outing in Boracay and I really enjoyed it. The white sand, the clear blue waters and the good food. I really hope that I could go back there one of these days.

I’m in love. I’m grateful that I was given a person to love and someone to love me in return. I’m happy and I’m quite satisfied with how things are turning out right now. Hopefully, he would be the one I would be spending the rest of my life with.

Seven years

Peace ya'll!

We’ve been together for seven years now. Looking back, I never thought I’d end up with him, moreso spend the last seven years of my life with him. Not all times were good but we were able to pull through. I was always the immature and hard-headed one, or so he says (Haha!) and he is the mature and more patient one (when he is not hungry.. haha!). We’ve quarreled and broken up several times but we always manage to make-up. Back in college, when we were much younger, he would always be the one to eat his pride and apologize whenever we have our misunderstandings (eventhough it is already my fault..=( ). Well, sometimes, that’s still the case nowadays but I’ve learned to admit my mistakes more and I already know how to say “Sorry”. I have learned that in a relationship, it should always go both ways. Give and take.

 

I’ve changed a lot and he had changed a lot. Both of us have been trying to compromise to each others preferences. There are still things or “persons” that are trying to keep us apart (aside from my constant insanity and insecutities.. hahaha) but we are trying to manage and live our lives one day at a time.

Seven Years. I hope it will not end there.

Things that I Hate…

I hate it when it rains and you had to go outside the house.

I hate waking up in the morning and still wanting to sleep some more.

I hate it when you’re left all alone in the office because you’re best buddy is sick and all your other friends have gone home.

I hate it when you’re socks get wet because you had to walk in the rain.

I hate using my umbrella because it’s already broken.

I hate anticipating for something to happen and it does not happen.

I hate the cold weather because i get cold easily.

I hate wearing high-heeled shoes because they hurt.

I hate eating vegetables because they don’t taste good.

I hate growing old because I don’t want to get old.

I hate having to explain myself to people.

I hate it when people don’t understand me.

I hate it when I run out of things to say.

I hate being embarassed in front of many people.

I hate it when I’m put on the spot.

I hate it when people stare at me.

I hate it when I don’t have someone to talk to.

I hate telling a lie.

I hate insensitive people.

I hate girls who flirt with guys who already have girlfriends.

I hate losing trust on someone.

I hate losing the trust of other people.

I hate it when I can’t make my own decisons in life.

I hate forgetting the things that I’m supposed to do.